Let’s Love Louder
The chain of life we can’t control draws my attention over and over. We can’t control its forever shifting nature and yet we try so forcefully to mold it and escape it. At times of a greater challenge our reactions spill out like a strand of pearls, our muscles tighten, our body contracts, our hearts harden, our minds spiral deeply and just like that the chance to lean into life escapes us without a warning. At other times, it feels like playing a catch up with our colorful egos. Self-validation and getting ahead seem so necessary like the air we breathe and the water we need. We are selling integrity and inner quietness at a high cost. We leak our energy and bleed our joy just to get swallowed into another cycle of longing for the next appraisal and compliment. We look for them in all the wrong places by draining our energy in all possible solutions around us. How could it be that we resist life’s changing nature to such a high extend and come short with forgiveness and compassion?
The course of my childhood left me eagerly focused on wanting to receive love. My longing was bottomless. It felt like I had to earn love and that got me stuck for decades. Now I know that there is another source - generating it. Generating love can be EVEN MORE healing. It feels like being rescued from a one way street thinking. What remains is that love is the strongest medicine we can ever hope for! Our whole chemistry shifts and upgrades during the process. All that remains unanswered and unhealed during our childhood gets dragged into our adulthood without any invitation. Since our minds travel with us, everywhere we go, so do our ingrained habits, our strong inclinations, our personal bondage. Generating love is a deeply cleansing feeling and generating SELF-LOVE can deliver the most purifying results. Let’s dye our thoughts to a lighter tone. Let’s dye our hearts with a harmonizing red tone!
I have been blessed to love on many people in my life - some made it and still make it harder but at the end of the day it is worth my trying. Each time I do, I get to heal me. Being a daughter, a sister, a partner for life, a mother of human babies and a fur baby, and a yoga teacher give me multiple opportunities to spread my love tank. For the most part, unlike in the past when I would automatically retreat into myself, I now choose to love. Love YOU, love ME. It is a process and I will never run out of learning material. With hope and acceptance I lean into life more willingly than before, I work on my trust, I work on my vulnerability.
I don’t know it all, I don’t claim to but I remain curious. I remain willing to grow and evolve. One written word at a time I am returning to myself and paying my dues that are so long overdue. I TRAIN MY HEART TO LOVE LOUDER. So, what do you say, love - shall we love louder? Let’s!!!
